I've been out of the Flashback groove for a few weeks, it's about time to get back on the horse. So when going through the picture catalog in my brain I kept coming back to 1 photo in particular.
#1. This was taken in March my freshman year.... MARCH. See that sundress? That's not normal for March. But I still remember that freak heatwave & how the whole campus came to life. Something similar is happening in Pittsburgh right now. It's been BEAUTIFUL in February for a full week, which kind of freaks me out because all the trees are still dead but I slept with my windows open last night. Thank goodness for a break from winter!!!
#2. Last night I went to a sewing class & had a really great time. And see that dress I'm wearing? (again, it's all about the sundress today) I made it. Well my mom really made it & I helped... which I didn't realize until this year when I tried to sew something & realized I had no skills or knowledge of my sewing machine. Hence the sewing class
#3. I have to remember to be kind to myself. A lot of times I'll look at pics like this & think "Look how skinny you were! Look at that jawline & your arms, why can't you be thin like that again?" But then I really remember when it was taken & realize I was SO HARD ON MYSELF back then too. I never believed I looked good & was probably so skinny b/c I was terrified to eat in front of my boyfriend. (my fault, not his) . And even at my very thinnest I was still a size 12, that's just my frame. So not much has changed in 8 years... I'm still not kind to myself, I still judge myself by the numbers rather than by my health, & I still wish I was something else. Grow up, Lauren. You shouldn't compare yourself to an 18 year old, you're almost 27. And life is good. Remember that.