So I started yesterday in a funk from the beginning knowing how poorly I'd been running the past week or so, plus I was running alone for the first time in a while, PLUS all the spandex models who were apparently hibernating & getting skinnier all winter were out full force. (It's really easy to feel hardcore when you're the only crazy people running in the snow... not so much when surrounded my models who could kick your ass.) I have no idea why this effected me the way it did but before I knew it (sometime between my 1st & 2nd walk breaks) I was this runny, gross, crying AND running mess of a person. I can only imagine what went through the mind of anyone who passed me.
It was bad.
After starting up my jog... again... after the 2nd break, I finally decided "this is just dumb" & walked the rest of the way. It's the first time in my life I ever felt good about quitting. I started thing whole running thing to have a healthier body & get some clarity of mind, & I wasn't getting either of those yesterday. So instead of beating myself up any further... I stopped. I'm thinking of taking the rest of the week off. Obviously my body hates this right now, & so does my head. So maybe I'll give them both a vacation from the running. Blah....
AWWWW....HUGS! It's so hard when we are our own worst critic. GIRL, my right ankle is a MESS and I haven't even been able to run in over a month. Think of this, there are a whole lot of people who took full advantage of winter to do nothing physical, so you should be proud that you stuck it out and kept doing it. I know how disheartening it is when you have expectations you don't live up to. When I was still running, I kept beating myself up for only being able to do 5K in 42 minutes where I used to do it in 35 minutes. I completely missed the part where I was doing it at all! I hadn't run in nearly 3 years, so what I should have focused on was the fact I was out there running, no matter how long it was taking me.
ReplyDeleteRest up...and start again fresh next week!